Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Thoughts in the Night
"I know who I have believed and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I've committed to him until that Day." I have sweet memories of singing that tune with a friend as we climbed a mountain in North Carolina. Did I have any idea that 4 years later I would be singing it for my life? How simple it is to commit all to the Lord Jesus when no problems loom on the horizon and life is amazingly carefree. "But when trouble comes, oh my soul, oh my soul..."
But the words of that song continue to ring true when we walk by faith and not by sight and when darkness seems to prevail. Important words in this song and 2 Timothy where it comes from are 'that which I've committed unto him.' If I lie awake in the night fretting, have I really committed my problem to the Lord? Psalm 81:6 speaks of God 'removing my shoulder from the burden (even the cancer burden?) and freeing my hands from the baskets. I can understand removing my shoulder from the burden but my hands from the baskets?
I'm not sure what the writer of this Psalm meant but to me it means the grip my hands have on my life. Lord, you can have all this when you tear it out of my cold, hard grip.(your thoughts have become mine, Mike Wells!) Do we realize when things are spinning out of control, so that we grab onto control, we are actually out of control if we are not letting him have control? (from friend Chuck Solomon). Sort of a paradox.
So, once again, in the middle of the night, I open my hands and allow him to free my hands from the baskets full of worries, doubts, and fear and find sweet rest for my soul. We head to NY for a scan on April 7th and an injection. Thank you for your faithful friendship and constant prayers.